ahaha. i'm in school. physics. mm yes. i've been quite happy but also been muddleheaded. been forgetting so much stuff that i don't know what i've forgotten.
haha i'm sleepy. well on saturday, we had CIP flag day! which i did with naomi and then we met weewee who was stoning around and towering over the two of us shorties. =D then we had lunch and stuff. yup. i ate a $3.80 chicken rice which wasn't exactly nice to eat and besides, i wasn't hungry anyway. =P stuffed as much down as i could and had leftovers. SINCE WHEN DID SANDRA HAVE LEFTOVERS.
yeah so anyway we bumped into someone who kept staring at weewee and i found that REALLY amusing. maybe it's his height.
but BACK TO CIP, i felt ACCOMPLISHED! the can felt SO heavy by the end it was at least 1kg. of coins! oh and i had 2 $10 notes in mine. i think the can with the serial number 0139 was a donation magnet. we met a few cool people too. =]
interesting CIP. haha then we went home and STUFF. slacked around, did some homework, etc. had tuition. then used the com a while i think i was mapling. *stretch*my left arm's numb.
that was.. random. oh then sat night i was talking to a depressed soul. sorry dude i kinda fell asleep halfway. but i woke up again. =P i had a dream while talking on the phone AMAZING right. so in the middle of a bout of silence, i went "ey the kid's running away". cos i saw this chubby little indian boy tottling away from his mum and sister. it was so cute. but then well, i had to wake up and actually i was half asleep. =P sorry i really tried to keep awake.. =(
then yesterday went to church and stuff. prac was the usual. learnt a new song + weird strumming pattern that makes the song sound jumpy and cool to a certain extent. God made me who I am! =D
then my dearest korkor called me and we talked till... 12+? in the middle there was a slight interruption which i kinda chased away cos my dad was in the room and nagging. again, i'm sorry i didn't really mean to be mean. mmhmm. and then we talked rubbish and he told me about his roommates? mixing up stuff. expired campbell's soup and egg? birthday surprise. GROSS. ><
yup so i had a normal weekend. hmm. i wish i could draw something and scan it in to blog instead. i like drawing. sigh. wish i could draw well. ah well. i should go on with my physics class exercise. or i think i'd die soon. mm. PT would be relatively easy though. just a matter of presenting a whole bunch of info. SS PT's interesting. chinese PT's... well, chinese. what else can chinese be but CHINESE. i HAVE to do well for it. i can't afford not to. =]
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11:07 AM
| You Are Big Bird |
Talented, smart, and friendly... you're also one of the sanest people around.
You are usually feeling: Happy. From riding a unicycle to writing poetry, you have plenty of hobbies to keep you busy.
You are famous for: Being a friend to everyone. Even the grumpiest person gets along with you.
How you life your life: Joyfully. "Super. Duper. Flooper." |
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6:56 PM
HELLO MR BLOG. xD
i'm happy. today i went to talk to mr teo about RS and then we started talking some rubbish. then he said that chenlaoshi said i've been a good girl! and she said that my attitude has improved by a lot and i'm so HAPPY! =D
i hope i can maintain this attitude. although. the si han! not exactly done with it yet. =( AND i didn't bring it either.
and then today i hardly brought ANYTHING at all which was sad cos there was a lot of stuff to hand up. which i have DONE already. and that's even sadder. ><
hahaha but nevermind. SIGH wish i could go/have gone for dramafeste. ohwell that's okay i can stay home and be happy it's all the same! =D
heh. i wonder how everyone is. i just want to SHOUT OUT, that i'm HERE. like ALWAYS. okay almost always. so if you ever need a listening ear or some (might not always be good) advice, call me! =)
(i have free incoming and the only obstructing factor is, well, my dad. who might come in and start yelling and then go on to confiscate my phone for the night.)
YES. i can tell you lame jokes too. a few at least. =]
i love you people cos you're all my friends and you guys make me happy. =]
AND I GIVE EVERYBODY A GREAT BIG HUG!
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6:40 PM
WOW. i'm happy. i haven't been so happy in AGES and today i'm SO happy i don't even know why.
good things have happened today. EXCEPT today's maths lesson which was SO boring cos i didn't understand a thing and i almost fell asleep if not for smsing in class.
YAY.
first, my cold/flu/viral thing seems to have taken a HUGE turn since yesterday. it suddenly feels a WHOLE lot better. maybe it's that horrible chinese tea thing that my mum bought for me. seriously, no pain no gain. it tasted like SHIT. in the mouth it's bearable, but once it's swallowed/gulped, O_O it's SO bitter that i took about half and hour to drink ONE cup cos i kept staring at it. plus it smells terrible. BUT ANYWAY i feel so much better today which is GOOD.
second, i finally finished the letter i've been writing. basically went on about how happy i was. wrote some random nonsense and stuff.
third, there was career guidance today! apparently i'm gonna be in the artistic industry in the future. according to that test. but they didn't ask any questions about animals though.. second in line was social stuff like counselling? third was the sciency stuff.
fourth, I DON'T KNOW! i'm just so happy. i went to class, didn't sleep. assembly and bio were freaking HOT like anything BUT i was happy. then during career guidance a dearest most adorablest little girl was sitting next to me and we started talking about morrison. i think i like morrison.
physics was good. we were talking about ultrasound and stuff. then i'm doing the PT with the same dearest little morrison crazy partner. which is a nice change from d'old people.
YAY I'M HAPPY I DON'T BELIEVE IT. i thank jasper for knocking some sense into me yesterday. i think that's the main cause of my happiness. i've decided to FORGET the thing that's been troubling me since it's such a pathetic little matter that has the power to kill me if i let it but is NOTHING compared to my ability to listen to my big brother and FORGET. so that rocks cos i'm OVER it.
WOOHOO.
thank You God! and Lord thank You for the time of trial and sadness i just went through because it taught me how to be happy.
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO'S HELPED TOO!! =D
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2:38 PM
it's so hard.
so very very very hard.
why is it always so hard to let go of things u never had, but thought you may have been able to have?
and when you find out how impossible it is to have it, you don't want to let go of the mere thought.
isn't that stupid?
it's even harder when what you want is busy with something else. preoccupied.
"life has a way of mocking people."
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5:24 PM
don't do this to me..
why doesn't anyone ever get it.
you don't, you don't, you don't and you don't. all of you.
daniel u said it's human nature.
a lot of things are human nature. there are so many things that are human nature, that i don't know if human nature is good or bad anymore. i used to think human nature is good.
love and compassion is human nature. but so is greed and and envy.
it's hard.
THAT. from my msn pm: it's all i want now and nothing more.
it really is. but why can't ANYONE give it to me. it's such a simple little thing.
you gave it to me once. then you smashed it a short time after.
so many have given it to me. but it always gets smashed. i don't know if it's cos i'm careless.
but it just keeps getting smashed.
you know what it is?
HOPE.
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9:47 PM
i think these tests rock. they give such CORRECT responses...
| You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament |
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. |
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1:47 PM
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it. |
i found this somewhere. i bet someone finds it familiar. but now i'm wondering if everyone gets the same result.
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1:44 PM
this is a delayed post, but. on wednesday, i went home with no trophies.
well because i left them at sakae. but bird took em for me.
that was lame, sorry. but it really felt like i went home with no trophies. but then again, it doesn't really matter really, what we take back physically. to me it was the memories taken back. so in that case, i took home too many to count. the past 2 months of intensive training. the past week of training everyday. it was amazing. the friends i made, the ups and downs i encountered... so many.
i cant count!
before this, i wanted this to end sooner, so i can focus on my studies. but then.. a "little girl" i know had this foresight that this would feel bad. now i feel bad.
it's sad that it's over.. so many things will be gone. the experience, the second life we all had at safra. so many things will change till the next time we might have this experience. the j2 guys will be at NS, some sec4s may not be shooting next year.. the feeling sucks. that i wont be seeing them. for such a long time. especially my DEAREST kor.=( kor please come back next year.. please!!!!
michelle and yitian.. i've kinda stuck on to them since the start of this year.. and to not have them in shooting in the next few years.. it's quite devastating?
it's sad that everything's over now. i won't be training much anymore, i'd be doing my PT, doing the yearbook thing that michelle and yitian saboed me to do (whatever's to be done), practicing piano, etc. Though i have been COMPLETELY slacking the past few days. maybe i just need the rest since i'm sick and all. but then.. it feels terrible - not doing anything, not FEELING like doing anything. just wanna sit around and stone around.
when i have things to do, i don't do them. when i have nothing to do, i want to do things. the time spent training and at SAFRA before nats hasn't gone off my mind. i wish it never ended, just that before this, i wished it ended earlier.
why is it i'm never satisfied?
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1:32 PM
hello! i'm doomed cos i havent done my english file. haha. but i'm more worried abouts nats currently. my right shoulder loose loose. shoulder piece keeps slipping.. hmm.. tomorrow i'm gonna tiao.
anyway. i'm falling sick!
Though i brought it upon myself. here are 8 reasons why:
- don't have a water bottle
- been sleeping late
- ate durians
- being lazy to drink water even when thirsty
- been eating snacks and chocolates (getting fat too)
- talk too much nonsense
- cry too much
- hot weather (technically this isn't my fault)
yeah so i'm dead. i'm drinking cup after cup after cup now. my throat feels dead. scratchy. oh tell u what. those honey cough drops things rock. they're REALLY good. anyway. my throat sucks! i don't even feel like talking. i mean, do u believe it. ME. i'm not talking. AMAZING.
SIGH. i can't fall sick.. not now. ohwell nevermind i was quite happy today. which is good cos i haven't really been happy, exactly.
training yesterday was good other than my shoulder problem which i HOPE with all my heart will be fixed by tomorrow. heehee. church today was... sleepy. i slept during the sermon. i'm so.. bad. but i was so sleepy and i was suffering cos i couldn't talk. then at the end of service (i have to mention names again sigh) jasper passed those WONDERFUL cough drops thingies to someone(s) i think to pass to me. ate one. I COULD TALK. like, WHOA.
okay that was lame sorry.
anyway. this room is freezing (which is random) and i still need to compose/write a song by the following tuesday.
how? recently i haven't been having any time to be inspired. =P DIE. maybe i should go tink around on my piano now.. cya!
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8:51 PM
just something to add.
i'm tired. really tired. but whenever i close my eyes, i feel like i'm in a ball, spinning, twisting, bouncing.
and that's not a good thing. then i open my eyes cos it feels quite horrible. so before i'm too tired to even open my eyes, before i sleep, it's like. close. 10 seconds. open. close. 15 seconds. open.
i'm starting to look like a panda. or a fish.
i've been dehydrated too.
didnt take PE today cos i felt like shit. pe teacher rocks. but he made a joke saying whether shit was a noun or an adjective.
but i'm really tired. maybe even exhausted.
tyred exhausted confucious.
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11:40 PM
i've been writing in my diary the past few days.. haven't been able to use the comp.. basically, i've been all things bad. i.e. feeling ostracized, jealous, sad, dejected, angry, frustrated, exasperated, furious, worried, afraid, nervous, etc.
it all started.. yesterday.
meeting someone on the staircase, getting my mid-year report, training, crying, meeting a father who's seen my report, crying again.
emotions: jealousy, nervousness, tension, fear, frustration, sadness.
i have about 5 days more till my doomsday. coach changed my dong zhuo for what, i dont know but i was just unlucky to jerk really bad when she was watching. one too many times. changed, felt okay, actually. shots turned out terrible. the biggest problem is that, i don't know what is the problem.
less than a week, and this happens. i really REALLY tried not to cry. but i just COULDN'T. i'm such a weak little thing. i was supposed to be strong. i tried sooo hard, but i couldn't.
i got into the car.. hiding my tears. they never know when i'm not okay, so it was fine. but dad had to talk about my report. i improved by 0.22 in my gpa. that's good. but no he didn't point that out. he pointed out the 1.2 for chinese. why can't he think of it this way. i can get 1.2 for chinese and still get a 3.33 gpa. but no, he goes, can u try for your chinese? you're just cheating yourself and screwing up your results because of it.
so wow. amazing.
went home, cried, sniff sniff, cried.
but i'm thankful for those who tried to comfort me. it worked at the end of the day. i managed to sleep at least. after going on and on about how cute yulin was. but that's not the point, thanks.
but then, today came. after school we were supposed to do something about open house. well, they left. it's weixian's day after all. but it hurt. if you know why it hurt, you know. if you don't, then nevermind.
that was the start of today's anger, fury, dejection and that feeling of being ostracized.
i went to safra. leong. guess what, i'm not an individual term member so i couldn't train. and i was hoping i could train to vent some stuff. tear cards, throw pellets, slam the button, be trigger happy for one card. it would have helped, or so i hoped. but i didn't get the chance. so i was really.. furious. i started cursing and swearing. i went out for a walk. stared into the big drain outside. i was thinking what would happen if i jumped in.. but i looked at the water inside, filthy. so i scrapped the thought.
why is it that.. bad things happen all at once, and good things happen all at once. but when the bad things come, we keep thinking it's not going to end, but when the good things come, we think: oh no. how can everything be working so well. something bad's bound to happen.
is it human nature? and time passes so fast when good things are present. then we end up thinking that there are more bad things than good things in our lives. but actually, i figured that most of the time, the bad things originate from too many good things. we worry about lack of money, cos we have everything else we need. we worry about school work, cos we have the parents to scold us if we do badly.
why are we like that? why am i like that?
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10:24 PM
okay now i can't help it i HAVE to mention names.
GAO YULIN IS SO CUTE. omg i want to PINCH his cheeks.
anyway. training was quite okay today. yesterday i shot 383. -__- sigh. but today i just shot grouping. 10 shots per card. always have about 2-3 shots out of the grouping.. 97-98. not that bad. if i shoot like today for comps, it's not bad at all. =D
but ohwell. someone was nice to me today. surprisingly. he's usually mean and dao. but today lol he seemed happy. must be cos of SOMEONE. HAHA. he said he was sleeping around. how scandalous.
anyway. today's RS was fun. Mr Hideaki Koh was telling us abour chord progressions and stuff. and how we can come up with a WONDERFUL melody rooting from elmo's song, and the sesame street "sunny day.." song. is that cool or is that cool. i think it's
AMAZING. then on the spot he came up with this
gorgeous melody along with
gorgeous chords.
he is SO cool. honestly.. raw talent people, raw talent.
as you can probably tell, i'm quite happy today. at least partly because bio pt's OVER. wonderful. and yeah. it feels like a HUGE load lifted off and stuff. =D yay. i'm happy!
finally. thanks to all those who have made me happy and tried to make me happy and comforted me and talked to me and listened to me. THANKS! =] i think now it's my turn to listen and be a NICE friend. XD
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10:23 PM
hello! i came back from church about an hour ago. had service at 3 which i screwed up cos i haven't had time to practise. sigh. but nevermind. towards the end it got better. BUT my everytime i played Bm. it was screwy cos
I DUNNO WHY i couldn't bar properly. so the plucking was twang twang twang. yeah. then the pickup.. 2nd string always so loud. haha. oops.
anyway. today i'm quite happy. managed to do the criticisms and stuff for bio. but tomorrow's the presentation. i really really hope it'll go well. i need it to, really. i hope the other members aren't mad at me for not being able to meet with them today.. the meeting was at 3.. sigh. I really got down to doing some work towards the end of our deadline, which is tomorrow. and so.. i hope i got some stuff going. i need
DESPERATELY to pull up my grades. which is probably why i've decided not to be slack this semester. not like i was last sem BUT. i think i should start chionging till i die at the end of the year. yes, i'm doing my crazy stunt of sprinting 2 rounds in 2.4 again. then i start walking.
hopefully i'll start walking only when it's the holidays. by then i think i'd really need a break. but for now, i'll concentrate on the bio pt and nats coming up..
hope i don't screw it up like (almost) everything else i do.
i'm sooo gonna rock this world with the help of my friends. YAY. i
LOVE my friends. u guys
RULE. and, well, yeah.
THANKS SO MUCH. i would love to say
MUAH!
but most of my better friends are guys. so that's not very appropriate, is it? haha.
but well, to naomi,
XOXOXOXO XD love y'all.
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5:01 PM
NOO.
don't do this to me!!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME.
sigh. sometimes i really canNOT stand him at all. it's so frustrating. he doesn't listen! has he even EVER been a teenager before! ARGH. doesn't he know that calling up parents to complain is AGAINST the rules of a teenager's life. parents aren't supposed to know much about our lives. and when one parent tells another parent about her daughter's life, consequences suck.
this is rubbish. i don't get it. i hope i won't be like that when i become a parent. i hope i never have to guess what's going on in my kid's life. my kid would suffer. not that i'm suffering but it doesnt exactly feel very good.
i can't let this happen. i'm gonna say she moved house or something. quote: that will earn you like a really screwed up reputation. EXACTLY. argh. how how how.
and then my best friend's sad. and then my bio pt's due. and then there's open house. and then there's nats. and then there a 3.6 i'm supposed to get at the end of the year with my gpa for chinese currently at 1.2.
i am so screwed. rubbish.
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11:01 PM
resting. though i should be resting away from the comp.
shoulders aching thanks to my terrible posture.
eyes hurt a bit. they're feeling rather dry.. computer, training, computer again. i wonder how computer pros manage to stay in front of the computer the whole day. *blink*
i haven't done my tuition homework.. thank goodness i told my teacher i had no time. so i don't have that much. SIGH.
bio pt.. came up with the meal and stuff already. but i dont know how to format it and put in the comparisons and stuff. crud..
why am i blogging this! training wasn't very good today. inconsistent. really inconsistent. shows i need to train more. sigh.. i'm so tired. and my dad won't let me train any more than i already do.
i can't wait for nationals to be over then i'd have a HUGE load off my back. focus on my piano and my studies. hoping things would be better then.. oh no i think today i realised that the 15th is open house. i think we're dead. nats are on 19th. 15th is before 19th. we don't exactly have the time to WORRY about open house. i think i'm too irresponsible.. no matter how hard i try to be responsible and organised, i just can't keep my mind on ONE thing at a time very well, so i can't focus. unless i'm doing maths then i forget everything else but that's an exception.
i think i need a break. but i can't have a break! break as in. not the kind of break i'm having now but a break from the stuff i'm doing. my health is deteriorating.
AH nevermind. i shall be strong and withstand this challenge that God put me here to face.
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11:40 PM
just to clarify things.. no gf no bf here. just gf as in good friend and bf as in best friend? yeah.
i'm drawing cai tao kueh. i'm resting now cos i have a backache from bending over and currently it looks like a pebble beach with some seaweed stuck in between the pebbles. >< cries.
training really sucked in the beginning of today. then it got quite okay in the middle 49s and 98s and 49s and stuff. towards the end it started getting bad again so i packed.
we were trying to teach the big guy how to sound more MAN. operation MANgzhe.
it's a bit mean i think, to try get him become someone he's not.. but it seems like he wants it too. i still feel bad.. but. sigh. nevermind. i'll just tell him to be himself the next time i see him..
the start of today was rocky too. my dad wanted me to go to taiwan and i didnt really want to cos i thought no one else was going and i thought i'd die there from over exposure to chinese. then at training i found out that the bird and the teddy bear were going too. so i got happy again. then i came home to the horror of bio PT being due early next week and started stressing out. =P
other than that, my mind's filled with so many things. i told jiao lian about them and i realised she's actually really nice and caring and stuff. some things there isn't much we can do about, but for the things we can, let's all try hard to solve the problems.
i'm worried about so many people... it's freaky why so many people start to break and freak out at the same time. it's scary when u feel like u're the only one who's okay and ur friends are all.. not so okay..
but thank God i have people who are stronger than me to encourage me that they're alright too.
and for classmates who tell you the geog FA can be done in point form.
the world becomes a lot brighter when u know stuff like that.
so.. let's look at the bright side of the situations we're in and be happy about what we have. =]
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11:46 PM
noo.. this isn't happening. NOOOOOOO.
pistol did well. but NOOOOO. no. this isn't happening. i was sad then i did maths and got the news from the pistolers. then i was happy and excited and hyper. and now. no... HOW COME THIS CAN HAPPENN. it's not supposed to. today was supposed to be a good day turned really really really good. BUT. no. SHIT.
this sucks. really bad..
i asked the dude about it. then. SHIT LA. now i'm sad too.
it's hard to have a good friend.. cos then when ur good friend is sad. u can't help being sad too. u can't help but share it. and when it's this.. it's not good. i don't know how to cheer him up but i can't do anything else either.
i really care. and i'm worried when he's like that. really worried.
if u're reading this, I LOVE YOUU!!!
sigh. don't be sad about it okay. just heck it. it doesn't matter does it? nah. nothing matters!! nothing matters everyone's gonna die anyway so don't spoil ur life like me. just LIVE IT. and do it the best way you can. and just.. HECK EVERYTHING. and be happy.
you only have one life. you have only one chance to experience this minute, this second, this NOW. don't waste it.. it's your choice whether you want to use it well and be happy, and it's your choice to screw it up being sad and disappointed and regretting stuff. so what are u gonna doo! please please please. spend it well.
i would spend it with you if i could but at the moment i can't cos i'm in school and u're far away in yishun. so.. i'm sorry. just CHEER UP okayy! *HUG*
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2:09 PM
i have a math test tomorrow and i dont have the slightest urge to do anything about it.
i'm almost certain of failure.
i was trying to do my maths worksheet thing last night. at least i think i tried. i tried and tried and i did everything insanely and realised i got a weird number. then i was advised to start by solving for y first. and.. it was easy. then i did the circle thing and subbed like crazy just to find out i could have gotten the RADIUS by finding the length of the line between a point on the circle and the center of the circle. i think i'm really stupid..
sigh. i'm honestly gonna fail tomorrow's test. i cant afford to. maybe i'd go do some more textbook practice later on if i have the mood to.. but the thing is that.. i just feel weird.
i don't really know what the feeling is actually. it's quite confusing. erm. ah i shant describe it. it's hard. and i'm too lazy.. sigh.
people who know me SLIGHTLY better would know i like to be positively influenced by positive people. but i realised.. quite recently. i think i may be a negative influence to a
certain extent.. i don't know but i certainly don't want to be.. i don't know what to do. another confusing thing..
i'm a confused little girl.
and i'm little.. chubby and "cute". short. small. round-ish. i wonder if people ever take me seriously.. sigh. i don't know much these days. i've been confused and, in a way, troubled, by lots of things, some of which i can't even put my finger on.
i feel dramatic.. (apologises for drama in the next few sentences)
i feel like i'm clawing the air for something i can hold on to.. i finally find something strong and steady, firm, cool to my flustered self. i want to cling on to it.. but i don't know if i should. there's something in me that says i should let go.. it says that this hand hold i cling to is not meant for me to hold on to. it says that maybe i don't have a handhold, not one i can feel, not one i can see, not one that i'm sure is there. i'm lost. it feels so good in my hands, but my fingerprints leave a stain... but i'm scared to let go because of my selfishness, cowardice.. insecurity. i don't know if i'll ever find anything as good, as perfect in my eyes..
i'm just not sure of what i'm doing. i'm just doing everything just as they come, with hardly any thought about why. i'm just doing things for the sake of doing them -- schooling because i have to, studying for the grades which are in turn to please my parents, in hope of finding freedom i don't need. there's so much more, but the lights are flickering and it's getting darker as one by one they go out and i'm afraid that soon i won't find my way..
i'm living in a world of nonsense, and it's getting harder to escape from this Alcatraz.
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7:59 PM
hello. i feel better. =] thank God. today in church (MS) my dad prayed for my back and then i prayed for my backache. then i sat up straight and no more backache! so cool right.
yeah. sigh. i feel better now. but i dunno if she's okay. sigh. poor thing she got so worried she kept crying then cdiv didnt get in then she cried even more and i'm really worried about her cos. well yeah.
so i know how to shoot tens but i know how to shoot 6s too. sigh. ohwelllls. i will try to cheer up more tomorrow.. for today i shall go practice my guitar for 3pm then i do my maths for tuesday.. hope i do well cos i need my maths to be 4.0 to help even out my 1.2 for chinese.
yeah. haha i feel naughty. my mum was getting me to wash the mug my tuition teacher used today. then she came over and threatened to tweak my ear and u know when people do that tweaking ear thing. the middle finger and the thumb are touching and the rest stick out? i did the same then i flipped it over and said "spiderman!" and ran off to wash the cup.
so. yup. i'm not supposed to be blogging. i just came on the comp to check what service i was serving tomorrow. am i a bad girl.. sigh.
i'll end off here then.
乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱想成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
stepping on your garbage
9:51 PM
