Saturday, July 22, 2006
this is a delayed post, but. on wednesday, i went home with no trophies.
well because i left them at sakae. but bird took em for me.
that was lame, sorry. but it really felt like i went home with no trophies. but then again, it doesn't really matter really, what we take back physically. to me it was the memories taken back. so in that case, i took home too many to count. the past 2 months of intensive training. the past week of training everyday. it was amazing. the friends i made, the ups and downs i encountered... so many.
i cant count!
before this, i wanted this to end sooner, so i can focus on my studies. but then.. a "little girl" i know had this foresight that this would feel bad. now i feel bad.
it's sad that it's over.. so many things will be gone. the experience, the second life we all had at safra. so many things will change till the next time we might have this experience. the j2 guys will be at NS, some sec4s may not be shooting next year.. the feeling sucks. that i wont be seeing them. for such a long time. especially my DEAREST kor.=( kor please come back next year.. please!!!!
michelle and yitian.. i've kinda stuck on to them since the start of this year.. and to not have them in shooting in the next few years.. it's quite devastating?
it's sad that everything's over now. i won't be training much anymore, i'd be doing my PT, doing the yearbook thing that michelle and yitian saboed me to do (whatever's to be done), practicing piano, etc. Though i have been COMPLETELY slacking the past few days. maybe i just need the rest since i'm sick and all. but then.. it feels terrible - not doing anything, not FEELING like doing anything. just wanna sit around and stone around.
when i have things to do, i don't do them. when i have nothing to do, i want to do things. the time spent training and at SAFRA before nats hasn't gone off my mind. i wish it never ended, just that before this, i wished it ended earlier.
why is it i'm never satisfied?
stepping on your garbage