Saturday, August 19, 2006
read my nick. stop pretending.
trying.
somehow it doesn't work anymore.
it's the pretence i tell you. i hate it.
it really spoils everything for me.
if not for it, the world would feel like heaven right now, but it doesn't.
i wish there wasn't the pretence. at all.
all that. it was a pretence. it was planned. it was what you were told to do, asked to do.
i really hate it. i really detest it. i can't believe the superficiality.
stop it. just forget it. i'm trying to just completely FORGET my STUPIDITY and no one's helping.
and i'm crying like shit in front of the computer now and i feel really stupid cos my mum's going to come in and not even notice. my dad came in. sat down behind me and he didn't notice. my sister came in, looked at my dp and didn't notice either.
you may get it, but. pretence. it breaks my heart.
really.
why not you just stop it altogether.
i already know what's behind the facade.
stepping on your garbage