Friday, September 29, 2006
maybe it wasn't meant to be after all.
i'm caught in a spot i don't know what to believe i don't know what to do. i told you to come home but you wouldn't listen to me you wouldn't let me be. i tried to give you so much more but now i'm caught and i don't know what to say cos i can't tell you i didn't know it would be this way. i didn't know we would end up like this. i couldn't see what was in front of me. i never wanted to know this feeling. but i miss you so stop showing your fist. i couldn't be what you wanted from me. i couldn't fight it. and i don't see it now.
i know i should shut up and back off. but that's not possible because i can't bring myself to. you could go away. but that's not possible because you won't and i wouldn't know how to face it. i only imagine you. there. and me. wherever you are.
and regarding the other topic mentioned in that emo paragraph/lyrics. why is this happening? i don't really understand. i'm really stuck i don't know what i'm supposed to do. i tried to tell you it was wrong but i couldn't convince you. and i wouldn't be afraid to say that you really screwed it up that's what i feel.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------- and then the exams are coming. i'm super dead there's so much to do. i need some help. no not some. a lot of help. i got a feeling i can't pass chinese. if i don't, i probably have to get 4.0 for everything else just to get that 3.6 my dad wants. gah. i'm trying harder than i've ever tried. but i just can't do it. what will happen, i really don't know. i don't want to know. i can't wait for the EOYs to be over, yet i want them to last forever so i won't have to get back results. i'm glad monday's a holiday i have some time to think and catch up on the work i never intended to do. sigh. i'm a big screw up.
stepping on your garbage