.____________________

everyone has all the time in the world.

just not together.

stepping on your garbage 10:52 PM

oh craps life sucks. i'm doing my work and it's totally not appreciated. -___-
AT LEAST I'M DOING IT DAMNIT. if i had know how you'd be i wouldn't have done anything and you'd think how i'm a good girl WTF.

you SO don't know me. WHATEVER MAN.grr.

and you won't let me go training tomorrow! amazing. you say i'll fall sick because i'm sleeping late for what, 2 days? HAH. i've been sleeping late since the start of the year. like i said, you SO don't know me.

damnit i just want to cry why can't you LET ME BE. if i fall sick, i suffer. TELL YOU WHAT, I DON'T EVEN WASTE YOU MONEY GOING TO THE DOCTORS'. and you're there wasting money on high class bicycles.

rarrr.

stepping on your garbage 1:16 AM

how the heck do i start the stupid geog essay on Singapore's budget 2007.

gah. i'm so schleepie. and i can't focus on the schtoopide essay. *blink*

come january we're frozen inside making new resolutions a hundred times february wont you be my valentine! <3

stepping on your garbage 10:25 PM

i keep thinking and i keep wondering. i don't know why, you never told me even when i asked you. all you gave were excuses. and i keep thinking and i keep wondering. all i want is to understand.

i can't sleep damnit.

stepping on your garbage 1:13 AM

i thought i never could love because i never knew what love was
i thought i never would meet someone who'd teach me what love was
i thought i never would feel so right with anyone at all
i thought i never could know one who i'd never known at all

i thought i never could spend a day just looking at someone
i thought i never would sit with so much to say but said none
i thought i never would know what it's like to while time away
i thought i never could speak what my mouth didn't dare to say

but when i think of you i think of the night
i think of warmth making wrong seem right
and when i think of you i think of the stars
i think of sitting on the rooftop staring at cars
i think i'll never find that feeling again
because i met you and somehow i loved you

i miss your softness

stepping on your garbage 9:40 PM

HI THERE. HAHA

recently i have felt stressed. and a lot of things have been on my mind.

i've actually been doing my homework, maybe that's why i'm stressed. ok at least, a BIT.

i'm scared to death of piano because i didn't know i was taking grade 8 >< HAHA. insane but oh so true. i only play piano because i like it and not for the exams! sigh. nevermind.

and then! i hardly have time to train! my tuition teacher! is making me! do one compo! a week! and i have! compos! to do! in school too!!!!!!.

so i have no more free days because one day will be spent doing compos.

and then!!! tomorrow!!! i have a physics test! and an english essay! and then i will DIE and suffer the most horriblest death ever because i HATE expos. and i'm not studying physics! so i'm going to be put in remedial! OMG!

ok i think i'm going to study later but BEEEEEEP.

i am tired. i can't sleep at night because of the thoughts running through my head. i cry before i sleep. at least i have been crying.

and if. if. if. if i had the courage. if i had the courage.. i would be broken.

stepping on your garbage 9:35 PM

haha today the guys from the taiwan trip came over to rg and gave their presentation which was soloed by shawn. SAD CASE.

and then it was like that. boring day. sleepy. I SLEPT THROUGH CHEM. >< i woke up for a few seconds when ms goh walked past but then i fell right asleep again. sigh i'm SO gonna fail chem XP life sucks.

oh rs today jay was teaching us to sing our songs nicely and he said ours is like a zhoujielun and caiyilin kind of song. heehee. i wonder why. AND OMG JIACONG AND TAMI'S SONG IS DAMN NICE NOW! OMGOMG i should totally fangirl.

and today i feel really really really stupid. I CANT GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD. it's like a BUG. a VIRUS. grrrr. indestructible one at that. and it is bugging me. i even dreamt about it when i thought sleeping could help me not think about it so annoying grr.

and i wanted to know you.

stepping on your garbage 11:07 PM

I GOT A NEW COMPUTER!

yesterday i went to courts with my brother. first we looked at cameras and camera lenses and lens cleaners. then we looked at random stuff. then we TOOK THE COMPUTER HOME.

i know it's really really old already, but to me, this acer aspire is HEAVENLY. =P

as compared to my old computer which is a mix and match thingthing. ><

hahhaha. life rocks.

and i actually finished my maths assignment do you believe it. YAY I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED.

oh and i did my commonwealth essay too. it's really really really really really boring. >< like REALLY REALLY. i fell asleep re-reading it. but who cares. granted it was 2am. but it's pretty deep it'd make a good lit text HAHA. zi kua. =P

yah k anyway looking forward to RS tomorrow. =D jj rocks.

AND AND. getting my hands clean of maths assignment1 and commonwealth essay. i shall leave it for mrs tan to edit. hee.

OMG TOMORROW EVERYBODY COMING RG!!! OMGOMGOMG. SO EXCITING I CANT IMAGINE MARVIN IN UNIFORM. lol. but no fun they wear long pants cant pluck leg hair.
NEVERMIND STILL COOL. but then quanjie not coming!! omg how sad is that?

yah anywayss. mrs tan said we might have to change seating arrangement and that makes me very sad i like where i'm seated and i like who i'm sitting with. >< i'm not even sleeping in class yet okay and the teachers are complaining. sigh. niaoness.

ohwellwhocares i think i rock cos i've only been booked ONCE for attire so far. HAHA. and one class booking. AIRCON SHIZZ.

yah and today i went ikea and i bought 3 snakes. i took one and i twirled it around my mum's neck and she went eeeugh and dumped it in a bag. then i looked at the huge pile of snakes before me and took another. then at the cashier i'm sure i saw one of them begging me to take it too. so i bought 3.

talk about impulse.

yup been a great day mostly. yay. life rocks. for once! =D

stepping on your garbage 9:34 PM

HAHA TODAY RS.

JJ came our school then after that going back we walked out with him then the odacers (serene) was like OHHHH MYYY GODDDD. O.O

then when we walked off they were still staring. lol.

then after that outside SOME PERSON walking in front of us turned around and had the O.O *gasp* thing..

ALL THE FACES WERE JUST PRICELESS. seriously.

so me and nat were teasing him. HAHA then he take cab back to lws school! so we kachiao him about the cab thing. HE'S DAMN NICE CANN.

yah anyway. i came home and i watched TV and when my parents came home i was lazy to get up and help lay table so i pretended to sleep in the end i really just SLEPT.

you know yesterday was the first time i had those dawn cheng kind of puffy eyebags. i looked in the mirror and went OMG SO COOL to myself. then i went to sleep. NOW STILL HAVE LEH.

so sad i was supposed to go training today but then daddy said nevermind better come home so i came home and stoned around. so sad. >< i think i should go training tomorrow. I NEED TO GO TRAINING IF NOT COACH WILL SCOLD LIKE SHIT HELPHELPHOW.

k bye i gtg do ppt. -_______-

stepping on your garbage 7:41 PM

baby i love you
thank you for the sunshine
for holding me tight
baby i'm sorry
for the ways i've let you down
for not knowing what i got

YOU NEVER LET ME GO

[omg ouch i just saw something PIANGPIANGPIANG my heartBREAK can! hahaha..]

stepping on your garbage 8:21 PM

eh crap you know i cant see the chinese on my blog i wonder if anyone can darn. nevermind. that's a song! duan le xian de zhen zhu! hahaha. =D

NA DA LI'S WORK LEH!

i want to thank her like a lot because i keep giving her rubbish and then she like processing machine come out nicenice. yay.

and i suck at recording because i can never get it right one whole time and that's like damn sad. i hope the actual recording can cut and paste. lol.

FINISH MATHS TEST TODAY WAS SCREWED I DUNNO WHY I COULD HAVE DONE IT. slaps self.

K BYE =D

stepping on your garbage 7:58 PM

SONGGG!

孤单冷漠的小星星
其实需要爱情
难道你听不见
它喊救命

遇见了你,牵手之后
再也不受痛苦
星星充满新希望
爱真是妙

我想起你的温暖
眼泪像断了线的珍珠
很想念
但时间过得太快
我们彼此的沉默
显示我们之间的距离
想不到
爱情能带来悲哀
不要离开

我们的爱,无法存在
但我不甘愿
就这样为爱情书
划上句点

需要时间,需要空间
还是奇迹出现
是否自私的借口
放弃所有

我想起你的温暖
眼泪像断了线的珍珠
很想念
但时间过得太快
我们彼此的沉默
显示我们之间的距离
想不到
爱情能带来悲哀
不要离开

我想起你的温暖
眼泪像断了线的珍珠
很想念
但时间过得太快
我们彼此的沉默
显示我们之间的距离
想不到
爱情能带来悲哀

想不到
爱情能带来悲哀
不要离开

到最后的你
还埋怨幸福在哪里
心都交给了你
断了线的珍珠掉
我心酸无比

stepping on your garbage 7:57 PM

Drain the veins in my head
Clean out the reds in my eyes to get by security lines
Dear x-ray machine
Pretend you don't know me so well
I wont tell if you lied
Cry, cause your droughts been brought up
Drinkin' cause you're lookin so good in your starbucks cup
I complain for the company that I keep
The windows for sleeping rearrange
When I'm nobody
Well who's laughin now

I'm leaving your town, again
And I'm over the ground that you've been spinning
And I'm up in the air so baby hell yeah
Well honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, I should be so lucky
Even only 24 hours under your touch
You know I need you so much
I cannot wait to call you
And tell you that I landed somewhere
And hand you a square of the airport
And walk you through the maze of the map
That I'm gazing at
Gracefully unnamed and feeling guilty for the luck
And the look that you gave me
You make me somebody
Oh nobody knows me
Not even me can see it, yet I bet I'm

I'm leaving your town again
And I'm over the ground that you've been spinning
And I'm up in the air, so baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

You keep me high minded
You get me high

Flax seeds, well they tear me open
And supposedly you can crawl right through me
Taste these teeth please
And undress me from the sweaters better hurry
Cause I'm keeping upward bound now
Oh maybe I'll build my house on your cloud
Here I'm tumbling for you
Stumbling through the work that I have to do
Don't mean to harm you

By leaving your town again
But I'm over the quilt that you've been spinning
But I'm up in the air, said baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn
Damn
Damn
You keep me high
You keep me high minded
You keep me high
You keep me high minded

stepping on your garbage 9:24 PM

assembly we had a stupid pointless talk about school rules. it just adds fuel to the fire they started.

like wth. you guys dont even know how to make sure there arent any loopholes in your rationales for the rules because there are way to many.

idiots.

no listening to ipod AFTER SCHOOL HOURS in the FOYER because school's an INSTITUTION OF LEARNING.
right after that you go on to say how we're having some music and dance performance for assembly next week because we should appreciate music, and LEARN from it.
and besides. mine's a CREATIVE ZEN V PLUS. which i saved up for anyway.

then you say no using ipod because there are people less privileged than us around.
then you teachers wear branded goods, smell nice and have pretty long hair which you flick about answering your very cool handphones. like V3i. there are people less priveleged than you too you know.

no using handphone around school because we'll be making lots of noise along the corridors.
I'M SURE SMSING IS NOISY. like what, the TUKTUKTUK OF THE BUTTONS? who calls so much anyway.

no polished TOENAILS because it'll affect the professional image. you'll book us when you see it - like in HEALTHCHECK.
i'm SURE we all look GLAM and PROFESSIONAL during HEALTHCHECK. when we're in school uniform we're supposed to be wearing shoes?

all for our "welfare"? the more rules there are, the more rules there are to break.
you say it develops "values and reasoning". restrictions curb development of character and personality. all those rulebreakers and troublemakers; they always end up stronger than freakin adorers of school rules. what you trying to do to us? make us all look the same? might as well cut our hair and give us all plastic surgery.

and after the talk you ask if there are questions. we ask questions, you say not those kind of questions at the end. THEN WHAT QUESTIONS. it's about the rules right? you want us to ask "yo dudes watcha having for lunch?"?!

i got booked on the first day of school for my socks which were actually only borderline - and sorry if the stupid school socks are lousy quality and lose their elasticity. SOME PEOPLE ARE LESS PRIVELEGED YOU KNOW. and some people's parents dont buy them new socks until their socks have holes.

rarrr.

stepping on your garbage 7:31 PM

HELLO LONG TIME NO BLOG.

i'm slowly letting go of what i was holding on to.

the past that will never return.

YES. so i'm pretty much happier. i hope. sometimes i break and cry in the middle of the night but God makes it all better for me. He comforts me and mends my broken heart. and He helps me sleep! =D

which is a good thing or i'd have fallen sick.

YES ANYWAY. i just read keeping faith by jodi picoult. i think jodi picoult is an amazing writer. the way she sets the plot and the story for what's coming later on, and everything. it's cool.

yeah anyway. OMG I'M PSYCHIC. okay nevermind some random thing just happened.

anywayyyyy! all the jc people say orientation was super fun. I JEALOUS. i wanna go tooo. lolll.

nevermind next time in JC i'm going to be well taken care of by my korkors and jiejies. xDxDxD omg funny.

k nevermind i'm so so so so sooooo dead for the maths test on monday because i'm soo so so so so soooooo amazing and havent started studying. xD whee. i rock right..
i hope i can get like.. 70% or something.

>< okay that's damn low but nevermind. just hope. cos i havent studied like HELLO?

yes lalala. i'm bored and slightly tired. we had floorball today! funfun.

and i ate 2 plates of zhu pa mian today. PRO RIGHT. i think i gonna be damn fat soon? haha.

nvm i feel good nanananananana. knew that i would nanananananana.

my God rocks.

stepping on your garbage 10:04 PM

sandra! &i know you dont give a damn says:
HELLOHELLO
sandra! &i know you dont give a damn says:
HAHALIFESUCKS
[mUff1N] wah lao my tail is gone liao says:
hello
[mUff1N] wah lao my tail is gone liao says:
mine too
[mUff1N] wah lao my tail is gone liao says:
my hair fail
[mUff1N] wah lao my tail is gone liao says:
just went to trim the back
[mUff1N] wah lao my tail is gone liao says:
and the hairdresser cut off my tail

...... MARVIN. -______________-''

stepping on your garbage 8:53 PM

and i know you don't give a damn
but i'd give you the world

and i know you've let go, move on
but i'll wait till the day i congratulate you

and i know you don't even care
but i care so much

and i know you don't know what i mean
but i'll still say it to you

and i know you haven't even thought about thinking
but i've thought long and hard, every day, every time

and i know you don't miss me
but i miss you so badly?

and i know you don't see me
but i wait for a chance to look at you

and i know you've left me behind
but i'll always be behind you

and i know you're not there
but i'm here.

stepping on your garbage 8:24 PM

OH WAIT. TODAY I SAW THE PROEST PERSON I HAVE EVER SEEN AT HOUSE OF THE DEAD. we even clapped for him when he finished the game. and i think we all wanted to kowtow. xD heh.. damn pro la.. watch him super zibei? hahaha. nevermind.

anyway. i guess i had a pretty good day. not all that great but better than previous days which i have all but been alive. i'd been in a faze, in hysterics.. everything but normal.

i'm glad to be back. not to singapore, but i'm glad to be back. as in, me? yeah. for the slow ones who havent noticed, my last few posts have been soooooooo emo. >< HAHA.

nevermind.

i'd say the world is a masquerade.

i still neeeeeed you
i still caaaare about you.

bsb!

stepping on your garbage 11:05 PM

i thank God for the courage.

stepping on your garbage 11:01 PM

妳說我像一個小孩總愛讓妳猜我說妳才像個小孩總要我說才明白
有些事太快失去了等待障礙沒了期待
我們的愛怎麼才自然每次溝通不來
就要離開就說不要愛

我掉進愛情懸崖跌太深爬不出來
下降的速度太快來不及踏上未來
妳的愛反覆徘徊打亂我呼吸節拍
該怎麼逃開我控制不來

我掉進愛情懸崖回想起妳的可愛
傻傻的還在等待以為妳還會回來
你的脸慢慢离开时间快将我掩埋
消失的太快我负荷不来

stepping on your garbage 10:08 PM

and i feel cheated, tricked, conned, assified.

stepping on your garbage 9:44 PM

i feel stupid.

very very very very stupid.

and i feel like shit again?

life sucks. HAHAA.

i've been the stupidest most ignorant and brainless piece of shit.

i don't even know what i'm feeling, what i'm thinking now. and what.?

who cares, i don't care. i DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU.go away.

stepping on your garbage 9:37 PM